Lovely last Night

First things were difficult the last few nights. NOT getting along with the guy I have been dating. We aren't really.. compatible. But due to my awkward living situation of living with his family, this makes everything a little more difficult. However, I have been talking to someone I do really like, and he came over to hang out before his flight out after dropping off his daughter. We watched zombie movies all night, had a dance off party to Wednesday 13, and tricked him into eating Vegetarian food ( and he LOVED IT).

I really like this guy, and he knows my situation with Tres right now. This guy is sweet and caring and hilarious, and well. interesting Plus..my cat whom hates males fuckin loves him.

So we hung out all night, we got up and left, and I headed out to my friends a bit early. Got my wrists touched up, and then went to Denny's with Breethulhu and our new friends Adrianna and Steven. From this, came Denny's for two hours talking about anything and everything, then going back to their house till about 130 this morning and just hanging out, drinking tea out of spooky themed mugs, eating candy corn oreos, and Playing with their Mancoon.

This may not sound like much...but was such a blessing out of all the stress going on in life!

Pleasent Screams!!

Twiggy Todd

KITTY

I've been away from home the last few days, and the minute I walked in the door, my little baby, Miss Crackers, would not leave my side. She has been meowing and purring at me for the last hour, and laying on my lap and arm for the last 45 minutes ( Sleeeeepy armmmmmm). I love this cat. I have almost always been around animals, my entire life, but most definetly, this little bucket of fur is amazing. I've had a horrible last few days emotionally, been running angry to depressed more often and much faster then I normally do. And While spending time with Breethulu was great, I just wanted to mope around by my loathesome and stop pestering her with my own bullshit thats going on emotionally, and with my family. But walking in my home to see my fluffy child overjoyed to see me, lightenied up my spirits alot. There is something about the warmth and love of an animal that will appease the inner sap in me more then the love of a human ever will.

Frustration..

Currently, my living situation is a tad bit...different. Back in high school I dated a guy named Brandon (Tres) off an on That in itself was the oddest damn relationship. First real boyfriend I had had, that everyone else very much disliked Broke up due to my step mother pulling me out of school and basically forbidding me from being around ANYONE that was not immediate family..and even that was    very iffy, thanks to her hating my father. That is a story for another time however. Anyways, after me and Tres WERE able to converse and get back together, he was dating a twat named Kaitlyn, whom I hate with a fiery passion of a thousand suns. Back on topic, I became the other woman, something I'm not proud of. That time period of my life is very dark and regretful part of my life, like I said, for another blog entry. Me and him are now back in a relationship, where I am his only woman, and he is my only man, and unfortunetly we are across the country from one another while he is in School (Army). I live with his parents in there basement currently, and I'm starting school in 22 days, however this is ENDLESS FRUSTRATION
not only is my man away in the army and I have not seen him since April 23rd, not only am I struggling to even feed myself often enough, not only is it endless drama in my life, but now, I live with his parents. I am thankful to them! I love them dearly, they have been wonderful to me! Dammit they gave me a cat and I LOVE CATS. (Miss Crackers is the SHIT)
However: I do not feel it is my duty as a non family member whom pays rent and stays out of the way to babysit drunkards. I personally love alcohol, and often sit back and think i do have a tad of a dependency problem. Though I have not had a drink in about 3 weeks. I do not want to be putting two full adults to bed, I do not want to be cleaning up beer and wine bottles all morning, or cleaning vomit up off the bathroom floor. It is rather upsetting to me, and frightens me in the aspect as I am frightened to ever become such a thing.
However I am trying to keep the perspective that it is their ife. At the moment in time, I am looking for a second and third job so that I might move much closer to my school I will be attending, and live the college experience. I love them both but if I have to go thru one more bout of helping two grown adults pull on there pajama pants, and awaken in the morning so that they may make it to work, I may go more so insane then I am to begin with,


So on that note of this rant of bitching, I shall await my ride home, search some craigslist, and think about a few handfuls of things.

Pleasant Screams!!
Twiggy Todd

Hello Clarice

So I guess I should give out some info about me and all. Where shall I start? Hmm.....I'm a smart-ass, professional zombie, Jewish by blood (and that makes me damn awesome) and I want to be a stand up comedian. Cause I'm damn funny. And I'm a Jew. I have to, It's in my blood. I can be extremely offensive, I'm starting school soon to be a Criminal Psychologist, and I love Cats. Dear GOD those fluff balls of awesomeness and cuddles are amazing. I have been dubbed Twiggy Todd by my lovely friend Breethulhu, Thanks to the fact I'm obsessed with Twiggy Ramirez and I act like Sweeney Todd. Sometimes. I love caffeine. I never shut the holy hell up. And I have no filter between my brain and mouth most times. I like doing things for a shock value..and I'm babbling like usual currently.

So as I'm at loss as to what to type about, I think I might cut this blog very short and leave for the next while. Soooooo.....

Till Next time!
Pleasant Screams,
Twiggy Todd